My Heart-Shaped Blog

Monday, November 21, 2005

I have returned.

I wish it was only a dream or some fairytale story. But it's not. It's my life.

For reasons that I will not mention in this blog, I have wandered off the true path. I lost what was important in my life. Everything that happened, and everyone that was affected by it, nothing mattered. I didn't care.

But while I was dead inside, something...inside...or in my blood...or in my spirit...awoke. I AM ALIVE! It's my life! So anyways...now I'm focused on getting it back! Obviously to those of you who stumble across here, this may not make much sense. But to those of you who have been affected, I am sorry. And I ask for mercy. A quote that inspired me from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire:

Dark and difficult times lie ahead, Harry. Soon we must all face the choice between what is right... and what is easy.

Pete.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Analysis of Zombies!

28 Days Later vs. Dawn of the Dead

I'm not a big fan of horror movies because with a few notable exceptions, they all suck. Halloween and all of the sequels, Resident Evil and the sequels, Friday the 13th and all of the sequels, The Ring with its awful ending and worser sequel, The Haunting-ewww!, the genre does not really appeal to me.

That changed when I saw some good horror flicks. The Picture of Dorian Grey, The Exorcist, The Silence of the Lambs...well-done movies, every single one of them! They revamped my enthusiasm for horror!

On to the topic...

I have recently seen both 28 Days Later and Dawn of the Dead and I was surprised when I saw that the users of the Internet Movie Database (IMDB.com) rated these films about equal. I thought...let's get a comparison on the next post! So here it is: my first movie comparison. Let's do this! (Leroy Jenkins)

28 Days Later
Directed By Danny Boyle
Taglines:
The days are numbered...
Be thankful for everything, for soon there will be nothing.
Day 1: Exposure - Day 3: Infection - Day 8: Epidemic - Day 20: Evacuation - Day 28: Devastation
Plot:
A powerful virus escapes from a British research facility. Transmitted in a drop of blood and devastating within seconds, the virus locks those infected into a permanent state of murderous rage. Within 28 days the country is overwhelmed and a handful of survivors begin their attempts to salvage a future, little realising that the deadly virus is not the only thing that threatens them. The protagonist, Jim, is a patient of a hospital. He wakes up to find the hospital deserted, to find London deserted and trashed. He walks to a church where he finds a pile of dead bodies. He learns about the virus.
Greatest Quote:
Jim: No, no. No, see this is a really shit idea. You know why? Because it's really obviously a shit idea.

My Take On 28 Days Later
Highs: Very realistic, Acting is superb, Emotional emphasis of the film is excellent, Rage virus, Wonderful flow of film, Deeper meaning
Lows: Not a ton of charaters, slow in the middle, Although different - unoriginal idea

Dawn of the Dead
Directed by Zack Snyder
Taglines:
When there's no more room in hell, the dead will walk the earth.
How do you kill what's already dead?
Plot:
A young female nurse, named Anna, is caught in the middle of a world-wide chaos as flesh-eating zombies begin rising up and taking over the world and attacking the living. She escapes into the streets and is rescued by a black police officer, named Kenneth. Together they find shelter in a mall along with a group of other survivors. For a while everything is ok, but pretty soon, they start running out of food, the power goes out, and the dead keep finding ways to break through their defenses. Realizing they're sitting ducks, they make a plan to head for an island by using two armored mall shuttle busses to get across the sea of zombies.
Greatest Quote:
Bart: You're the trainee, man. Shit rolls downhill.

My Take On Dawn of the Dead
Highs: Lots of characters...each equally developed, zombie action sequences are terrific, moments away from action are unique, great character development over time
Lows: action is not realistic, cannot fully develop characters because of the number

The better movie: (IMO) 28 Days Later

What's your vote?

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Lyrics: Heart-Shaped Box

Here at the Heart-Shaped Blog, I'm starting a humbling new tradition!

I have always been in love with music; there is just no other art form that can express what is done is music! I have played the piano, the clarinet, and the unstoppable guitar! but I do not feel as connected to them as I once did, sadly. I don't have...even as I'm typing, I have to stop and wonder...and make sure I won't regret it.

I don't have time anymore to continue playing. My goals and interests have changed, even though my reverant attitude towards good music has not. I am beginning to focus more on literature; my ambition is to wield literature into the visual medium of film and thereby, reinventing the art aspect of film. My craft must be good. I just do not have the time to become a mesmeric storyteller and at the same time, a talented musician. I have to drop music.

That's why I'm starting this new tradition. If any song that I listen to captures my heart, I pay a tribute by posting its picture and lyrics. We can all sit in awe and wonder.

So without further ado, the song from which this blog takes its title...




Artist: Nirvana
Song: Heart-Shaped Box
Lyrics:

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks
I was drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn back

Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint!
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hate!
Haight!
I've got a new complaint!
Forever in debt to your priceless advice!
Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint!
Forever in debt to your priceless advice

Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back

Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint!
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hate!
Haight!
I've got a new complaint!
Forever in debt to your priceless advice!
Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint!
Forever in debt to your priceless advice


Your advice
Your advice
Your advice

Pete.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Urgent News Update!


Lock Your Doors!
Be sure you lock your doors and windows at home! A New Jersey man was found dead in his home over the weekend. Detectives at the scene found the man face down in his bathtub. The tub had been filled with milk, sugar, and cornflakes. A banana was sticking out of his butt. Police suspect a cereal killer.
This is not a true story.
Pete.

Friday, September 30, 2005

Karma

You know...the whole thing of what goes around comes around.

In any case, a very sweet female, The Love Fool, posted my problems (another words, one of my entrys) on her site! Yippee! I'm going to be recognized for all the crap I have to go through!

The truth is though she deserves a little recognition herself for being able to find my blog out of eighteen million. A real accomplishment! So here's her blog: She who loved... but eventually lost. Enjoy it and Thank YOU!

Pete.

College and Such

Wow! Would you look at that? The end of the month has arrived. It landed so quickly and I've been so busy, I haven't reached out to my other responsibilities a.k.a. my blog. Forgive me...sometimes, time flys away and you're left standing at the terminal.

I have no direction with this post so I'm just going to wing it. A little impromptu, if you will.

First of all, may I mention the fact that TCU FOOTBALL ROCKS THE HOUSE! Last Sat., after being down 41-29 in the fourth quarter to BYU, the Horned Frogs came back with sudden sense of urgency and their energetic efforts led them to victory in OT, 51-50. This is the second overtime game we won this year! The thursday previous, TCU won at home in OT against Utah 23-20, ending their 18 game winning streak. That was the second longest streak in the nation! Anymore of these close wins in overtime and I'm going to have to get a respirator.

The worst thing about it: ESPN never even mentioned the game against BYU. How could you not even give a note on a 51-50 win?

The brothers and I had a donut eating contest at Krispy Kreme on Sunday night. The challenge was to eat a dozen in under 30 minutes. Let me just explain the gravity of the situation: a dozen is 4800 calories. That is two days worth of food in under 30 and it's all sugar! Ugh! Greg did it in under 7. HOLY SHIT. I seriously have to doubt this kid is human.


IF YOU HAVE NOT READ HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOODED PRINCE, READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! IT DOES CONTAIN SPOILERS!

So, I just finished Harry Potter and the Half-Blooded Prince. Great book! I thought it was the best one of the series (although all of them are great). The climax truly made me feel remorse and regret and anger. I was a little perturbed however because I felt like the book had no driven plot until the end. By the way, I don't like to brag, but I knew that Dumbledore was going to die. My freshman seminar was about medievalism and nothing but. We discussed Tolkien and Rowling intensively and in studying the classic storylines of medieval poems, I came to believe that Dumbledore represents the wisdom figure that must fall so the hero can rise. Now I know those of you out there reading this are jealous but I'll admit...I had no idea that Snape was the Half-Blooded Prince. In fact, I was so clueless that I didn't even consider him! As
long as we're on the subject, I'm not sure how the rest of you feel about it, but I am extremely dissapointed that Snape has succumbed and is now...a death eater. I always liked him. I still love Fred and George!

END OF SPOILERS


I also managed to get myself into a pickle.

I am told that I can be quite charming. Case in point, I was cheering on my flag football team (whom at the time was getting obliterated) when a girl that I met earlier in the year walked up to me. We embraced in a strong hug and asked each other how everything had been since. I chatted for a bit. Somewhere in there, she mentioned she was on the team and that she had really missed me.

Now I know without a doubt in my mind that if I asked this girl for a date, she would say yes in a heartbeat. She's very enjoyable to have around because she's a social animal, extremely outgoing, keeps it down to earth. I like her as a friend but I don't have a physical or emotional attraction to her. I can't, with a good mind, ask her to a date, can I?


What's worse, all the guys think that I like this girl and that I want to go out with her; they keep pressuring me with all this worded-trash because they think I'm just too afraid to ask.

Please...I'm better than that. I swear I get no credit. If I find someone that I want to date, I will date that person (with her consent of course), period. If she says no, fine, but I will subtlely work her into my favor. And then perhaps, we'll date. Who knows? Either way, I'm a very cool person and I'm too mature to be scared off by pressure.

But this situation irks me. It seems like my back's against the wall like Han Solo, waiting...biding my time. Either to get blasted by Greedo or to get frozen in carbonate or for the garbage shute to squash me dead. Oh, what am I ever going to do! Until next time...

Pete.


Friday, September 23, 2005

It's All About Attitude!


Be ACTIVE!

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And use a bit of charm while you're at it.

A good lesson from Charlie.

Pete.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

The Storm


It's figurative, of course.

For those of you who read my last post, it insinuates that I am supposed to complain about how my life has gone down the shithole over the past few days.

Don't get me wrong; I'm not running out of material. Oh ho, far from it! Let me give you the situation.

I am backed-up, overloaded with work right now. And since my computer crashed, I have to do all of it in the library. You could basically say I lived there over the past three days. Aside from these crippling problems, I have a row of tests to study for (even as I am writing this, I still have more!) Today, I learned that I could not count on one of my professors to tell me the correct material to study for a quiz. So now I have a guarentee of a crappy-ass feeling when I get that failed paper back.

Aside from all this, I was working on fixing a paper yesterday on a library computer, a friend messages me on AIM. He wants me to come to RUF with our regular group. As soon as I'm done reading his request, another member of the crew messages me and asks me the exact same thing! I unfortunately have to disappoint them both. I feel downtrodden.

I began sorting those names in my buddy list when I see a screenname that I have never talked to before. And she's on my buddy list! I look at her away and believe I know who she is. I leave a random note and continue my work. She responds with, "Who is this?"

Well...this was quite a shock to me. So I ask her who she is and she doesn't really trust me; I can already tell. We exchange names and neither of us knows the other. I facebook her and still cannot place her. I look at our mutual friends and begin questioning her to see if we met. WELL...

As it turns out, we met one time. It was me and my roommate, two girls, her and her boyfriend. We were all watching TV and having some drinks in my room. I was fixing my VCR so we could watch a DVD when someone messages me from my comp. She immediately asks if she can talk; seeing as how she's anxious and curious and looking at me like this would be the greatest thing in the world, I let her have at it. She chatted with my friend and eventually got lost in the conversation. Pulled me over to help her out.

The point is this is the only time we met. So, naturally, sometime when she was talking on my computer, she must have added herself to my buddy list. It's the only explanation! I tell her that but she denies my claim and tells me that I'm stalking her and I am weird and crazy and blah blah blah. I don't know you!!! How can I stalk you if I don't know you!!! I didn't add you to my buddy list!!! At this point, I am just trying to end it but she keeps talking and threatens that if I keep messaging her and stalking her blah blah blah. Then she hits me with a low blow: "Stay away you creepy little freshman."

Freshman??? I DON'T THINK SO! Here I am, an innocent guy, just trying to do my homework and I'm being threatened by someone I don't really know.

I am really infuriated. I waste time just to get bitched at by some random person.

I continue my work when I can't help but overhear the conversation next to me. A guy is explaining to a girl that he isn't going to type the required three pages. He is only going to type two because his works cited will count as the third page. She asks really? and he says, "Yeah, the teacher don't care. I'm going to type two pages and still get full credit for it. Besides, I don't have enough time to spend on three pages."

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You can imagine this lit a firecracker in my brain.

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But today, I calmed down. I thought about the citizens of New Orleans who have no homes, no possessions, and no food. I thought about the victims of 9/11 - honest and hard-working men and women, about the firefighters who tried to save them, about their kids who will be forever scarred by the pain. I thought about my parents who may have to evacuate from the new threat: Rita. And I realized...my life isn't that bad off.

There is a way to deal with the shit that life brings you. It's simple.
Count your blessings.

P.S. Don't worry about that girl! I have decided I am going to have a little fun with her!

Pete.